Humbling Experiences

It has really been since November since I have updated my blog. So many wonderful things have happened. The most recent being that we just found out that I am pregnant with Twins. I am excited, elated, overjoyed, and well, Scared. My hopes were to have one more baby, and with the thought of having two on the way, well, I am frightened beyond belief. I am exausted most days without exerting myself in any way at all. I used to be the one cooking, cleaning, sewing, creating, selling, ect..now all I can do is pretty much sit and rest my weary bones. I can't do the things I used to with Bella, such as go to the park, take her to museums, friends houses, ect. Any "overdoing" it in any way makes me just feel terrible. I feel like the most unhealthy person imaginable. I love to be active, go for a bike ride, maybe even take up sycronized swimming. This is all so new to me.

Don't get me wrong, I am blessed beyond all measure. God has chosen me for this task. I am eternally grateful. I can't imagine how in the world I EVER got this lucky. It is just so hard with sleepless nights, and hormone inbalances, and this is just the begining!!!!

Any of you out there with real wisdom with being pregnant with/raising twins bring it on. I just ordered this book, "When you're expecting twins". I wish it was in the mail Today!

New Things Happening...

I am so sorry folks, to not update my blog in the longest time! There are many new things happening in my life, and I promise to update on these happenings very shortly......

Much Love, Sara

Bella and her "mad" face. Not wanting the camera this day. Poor kid.

Taking a stroll in Fine Handmade Clothing.

Bella lost in the corn in Irene's unbelieveable creation. Fine Handmade Clothing is an Etsy shop that I stumbled upon, and fell in love with right away. Irene's handmade clothing for girls and boys is classic, and unique. Stop by her shop today, and purchase something special for your child's holiday . www.finehandmadeclothing.etsy.com

Bella was into being a cowgirl last week.

Bella communicating

The Shamu Trainer in action!!!

My 30th birthday cake.

Bella's (angels) Teachers. We just love them both so much.

So much going on here. From the Farm visit with Bella's preschool, the Shamu trainer costume that I have been working on, to my 30th suprise birthday party last weekend, to today's harvest festival with Bella's school.

Life is good, preschool is awesome, and Bella is loving life. What a lucky mommy I am.

Just picked up some new fabrics for the shop, can't wait to get started with them...it will have to wait till next week I am afraid :(

Sewing

I have been taking it slow, making things for the shop for Fall. I haven't been in the mood since I want so badly to make items for cool weather, yet it remains 110 dregrees here! This top is ultra feminine, and just fun to wear.

Next on the agenda are flowy tunics and tops constructed of ultrafine cotton/silk voile. (Thanks Jules.) Both for Momma and Girl.

Bella is adjusting nicely to school now. She has a wonderful teacher that she has clung to. She is holding on tight to her for dear life. Hey, whatever works. I am so proud of her.

More Fall items appearing soon...

Shamu Trainer

We are finally somewhat adjusting to preschool. Bella isn't excited to attend, but doesn't totally disagree with going. She is obsessed with making it clear that she wants to be a shamu trainer, and that is why she is attending preschool. She learned on our recent trip to San Diego, that you must get a good education to be a shamu trainer. Her days are currently spent "pretending" that she is a real shamu trainer, and she insists that she is NOT simply playing the part.

" I am a real trainer mommy. I am not pretending. When can I get in the water with the other trainers?" You know what?, I tell her, I believe that you are a real trainer. She says, " The other trainers can hold me up in the water, and help me swim with Shamu since I am small."

Go get um Belle....

First Day of Preschool

Please tell me there are so many other mom's and dad's out there with photos just like this. Yesterday was Bella's first day of preschool. We had prepared her for months for it. She never wanted to go. She was scared of the kids she didn't know, just everything about it. She did great when we dropped her off, and picked her up. She seemed to have a new found confidence. When we went to leave, a little boy pushed her off of the platform she was standing on because apparently she was in his way. She cut her knees on the rocks below her. Being a mother of a child that never pushes, bites, kicks, whatever, this is very hard for me to understand. I know kids do these things, but it is just beyond my comprehension what to exactly to do about it. My child looked at me and said, "Why did he do that? Friends aren't supposed to do that!" Like I had lied all along to her as to how people treat each other. How do I explain, "Oh honey, he only appears to be about 2 1/2 years old, he doesn't know better, it's OK"

At least the mother was apologetic, and I had a friend say to me on the way out, "Oh, it won't be the last time." Really? Seriously? Lovely. Bella did not want to go back today, we fought all morning regarding the matter. When I left her, it was hard for me for some reason. I have cried two days in a row. Not because I have to leave her, god knows I have been waiting for this day. I am just not sure what it is. Maybe it is because I can no longer protect her, and be there to guide her every moment. Maybe it is because soon enough, she will be influenced by something much bigger than me, Her Peers. All I can hope for, is that when another kid gets knocked down by someone she will be the one there to pick that child up, and say, "Hey, sorry that happened to you. Wanna go play?"